Awaiting baby Jack

This is my updated motherhood story. The days of walking around with a little one inside that I still can’t believe will soon be mine. How did I ever get so fortunate to mother three little boys? Three little boys, just what I always said I wanted…

It has been almost six months since my last journal entry and I can honestly share with you now that it feels like its been too long. When it had just been a couple of months and I started getting the “are you okays?” “miss you online!” and “when are you going to post our session?” messages I kept thinking… guys it’s just been a little while, no need to assume the worst! But now sitting here putting together this post it feels as if there is so much to tell. So much to share. So many feelings and pictures that how could I possibly make it all happen in one post? Therefore it has been prolonged till now. These pictures inspired me to share with you all bits and pieces of my latest pregnancy and what’s been happening in the Vigoa corner of the world. If you’re new here, this is a personal post and these pictures are of my children and I taken by none other than my mother. Can’t believe I just wrote that. But it is true, we make a great team and for this and so many other reasons, I am very lucky to have her.

I am currently 34 weeks pregnant with baby number three which is ANOTHER BOY! Three little boys… soon baby Jack will be here amongst his wild big brothers and we are all so excited to meet him. He has given me a very uneventful and ideal pregnancy with little to no complications at all. With the twins I felt sick to my stomach for the first six months barely having any appetite at all and finding every kind of smell intolerable. But this time around it’s been easy peasy on the physical aspect and I am so grateful. Last year in October I suffered from an early miscarriage and felt as if after that anything that would happen would be surreal. I felt strange thinking I was pregnant again fearing that it all could go away so quickly once more. But as time went on and this little bump grew into the big bump that it is now, that fear has faded and excitement has taken over. I didn’t want sad news to affect William and Matthew and my goal all along was to be okay for them. They are so quick to pick up on how I am feeling that it’s scary how much they’ve grown. From the start of finding out about their new sibling they have been nothing but loving and affectionate towards me and my belly. Constantly asking when is it time to meet the baby. Wanting to kiss or blow raspberries on my bump and making my momma heart melt into a big mess.

After our trip to Hawaii in January of this year I decided I would be working much much less than I had planned this year in order to fully enjoy this time of just having the twins and dedicating as much time as possible to them. We were also in the midst of redecorating our entire home and that too needed lots of attention before welcoming our baby Jack. So I closed bookings entirely and only shot the sessions/weddings I had previously scheduled. This meant a lot ( a whole lot ) of NOs, something I’m not quite used to saying often especially to my repeat clients, but it was absolutely necessary. As much as in a way it could hurt my business, taking on more work would negatively affect my family and now that I’m on full break I am certain it was the best decision I could of taken. I was missing so much of what was happening here and stretching my energy past what a pregnant woman should be doing for the sake of having it all. When in truth all I wanted was right at home anxiously waiting for me to return. We thought that hiring help at first would be the solution and considering that I would still have to go through the hiring process, training and upkeep we also postponed that idea for the future. So what’s become of Abigail Vigoa the photographer? I am still editing the past two weddings I shot last month and will be officially on break until October when I return to shoot a very special couple’s wedding. In November I am also shooting weddings and then will be on break again until January. January 2019 is the big comeback month with new adventures and ideas for my sessions. I won’t be taking any bookings until later this year since we want to welcome our little one with no pressure of already having our days planned. Although I can share a bit of what I have been feeling will work best… come January we will be shooting only portrait sessions until wedding season picks up around the fall. I will be limiting the number of weddings I book to only a wedding a month that first year and portrait sessions will be just as special. I’ll be sure to keep you all update via Instagram and on here with news once bookings open for those of you that have already told me you’re holding out!

Recording this time of awaiting my little one has been one of my big must-do’s just as it was with my first pregnancy. Unfortunately the weather in our neck of the woods has been so terrible that scheduling time to do so has been very difficult. We tried to do so about a month ago and ten minutes into the session it started to heavy pour and there went our shoot. But this past week I was determined to make time count and not let Jack’s bump slip by with just as many pictures as his brothers have. I packed the kids and the car with everything we needed and picked up my mother and headed towards the park although it was raining. The rain would have to eventually stop right? And so it did. Just for us I like to think. The boys were even in such a good mood that I never wanted that afternoon to end. This is what my ideal version of motherhood is. A baby in each hand and one on the way. If it wasn’t because I’m in love with those little sandals of theirs, barefoot on the grass with their “muscles” out. And as for me, three day old messy hair and nothing but concealer for my sleepy eye bags and mascara. I don’t want to look back at this time and think, oh what a glamorous mom I looked liked for my maternity pictures because sadly every day at home I am the total opposite from that. Our typical motherhood getup: Pj shorts and anything that will fit comfortably around this ever growing baby bump with a messy top knot. A not even nice one for that matter. I wish I’d be wearing the cute dresses and having my hair done all the time, but that’s just not what’s happening. That’s not real life for us. The one accessory that makes my frumpy Mom outfit all perfect though is the chiming on tune, at once, and in repeat – “momma”… “mommy” … “mom!” (“Momma, wipe my butt!”) I know that last one will be one I mention to them for ages. For those of you that don’t have children… the potty training and beyond period is quite fun I tell you!

These days of babies won’t last forever. The twins are already are so different than the giggly little things I once held on each side of my hips. They ask way too many questions and use words like figurines and collection. Soaking these moments is what’s on the horizon and I’m loving every minute of it.  Thank you mom for putting up with my many requests and for standing precisely where I wanted you to and pretending to be me. I will treasure these pictures forever and love them that much more because you took them. I love you!

a momma and her soon to be three little ducks.

That one above is going up in our home for sure… an early favorite and already my phone lock screen.

Seriously want to eat them up over and over again.

^ another favorite of my Will being all sweet.

I hope you all enjoyed playing catch up with me as much as I enjoyed sitting here pouring my heart to you. Moments like these are why this blog is so lonely. I want to personally thank all my readers that have reached out via Instagram with warmth and best wishes with baby Jack. I can’t wait to show you all his little face. Much love as always!