flashback to when…

It seems like yesterday I was still breastfeeding the boys at home while eating a lunch trying to not land food on their heads. Yes, those twenty minutes that they fed I would eat too. It was the only time I had them both calm enough where nothing else mattered to them but FOOD. I remember that around this time I was already beginning to feel the end our breastfeeding journey was near and it saddened me to think that they would no longer “need” me that way. I use to think we would loose our connection. My favorite part of our day was that, sitting or laying, nursing them. It made me feel like a mother. Like their person. Of course to them I probably was just their food supply, but I like to think of it with the best kind of light and imagine they felt the same way. We were all connected during that time. Just a month later, I broke my left arm during a boating accident and soon after that I stopped breastfeeding them. It was very difficult to get them not to lay on my arm or steer clear of it so I weaned them off during two weeks and they accustomed pretty fast to the bottle. 10 months total we spent together nursing, and it was the best months ever. Looking back now, I was so silly to think our bond would end there. These little monsters are attached to my hip night and day! Oh if only I would of known this back then, I wouldn’t of cried so much in the shower thinking I was a bad mother for weaning them off like I did. We like to be so hard on ourselves right ladies? Breastfed or not, they were still my happy well-fed babies! So don’t ever let that make you feel less of a mom.

9 months old… that’s how old they were in these images Jael snapped for us one afternoon. Days when they had yet learned how to walk, ask for all of our food and were teething like crazy. This is also when they started biting each other. Dear fellow twin momma, the biting is normal. It will be a bit of hassle getting them not to “eat” each other at times. Especially months later when they give each other a mouth-full-of-teeth bite, but it will stop. It’s just a phase. Remember that they will have each other to love and play, but also to fight and bite. 🙂 This is something I learned the hard way and now have come to realize that they stopped all on their own, not because I said so. We shot these where we initially had our first maternity session, if you would like to see a few of those, click here.

Thank you pooch for coming along whenever we need you to capture memories for us. Can’t believe this has been over a year ago! Tomorrow is the day… tomorrow they will be TWO. I am already crying…