It’s 5:10 am and I lay there wondering why it is I offer sunrise family sessions. Why on earth does anyone wake up that early? Why is it that your best sleep is usually right before you’re supposed to wake up? Grunting the whole way through I drive an hour to Ft. Lauderdale. I walk into a Starbucks at about 6:15 am looking like I still was neck deep in sheets and order breakfast, which just equals a white chocolate mocha. I’m usually up for pumpkin spice this season, but that day I was not having the cinnamon kick. I drive to the beach where I take a mini snooze until 6:50 am. I wasn’t going to walk to the sand until my family arrived but something tells me that I might as well enjoy the sunrise since I’m there.
The greatest wonder of being a new parent is having that huge sense of gratitude along with the heavy weight of responsibility. Simultaneously balancing both all day is quite frankly what those few weeks are all about. And if I were to go further what I myself have experienced, thats what parenting is all about. You love your children instantly. They are the fruit of your love with your partner and a blessing in human form. Your little person. But just as God has blessed you with this tiny human, you now are the sole care taker of all his and her needs. Hence why the sleepless nights, the constant feeding, diaper changes, laundry LAUNDRY laundry. All amounting to two willing exhausted parents.
Twenty months ago, on a regular Monday, I spent my last night in bed with my husband wondering what it would be like to meet the twins. Four hours later my water broke and I was beyond shocked Will & Matt would be here five weeks early. Just like me, there are so many of you out there that are mothers to premie babies. We all know what it’s like to get that worried feeling of “was it too soon?” “is she/he going to be alright?” and let me not even get into the stress and helplessnes you feel if your baby happens to be in the NICU for any extended period. When our babies are born we want nothing more than to never be apart from them.
Some days are filled with constant carrying. Your arms feel as if they are in an extended work-out that never ends. Life with three kids means something is always happening. School, swimming lessons, homework, diaper changes, grocery shopping, laundry… lots and lots of laundry. Not that I would personally know ( not yet anyways 🙂 ) but my friend Kristin has been doing this and more for the past three years. She will fool you into thinking its the easiest job in the world with her perfect hair and beautiful children. But now that I am in her shoes with the twins I know there is so much more beauty to being a mother than the cuddles and kisses I snap in photographs.
Last month my husband had a business trip to Tampa scheduled and we decided to make it a family outing. I didn’t want him driving alone those four hours so naturally I made sure the boys and I kept him company. Sam came along as well and we even had ourselves a mini-sesh by the docks, you can see pictures of us here. While D was busy chatting away business, I met up with an Instagram friend / twin mom in the area. I love how social media can bring you closer to people and you can easily feel that you aren’t the only one experiencing any kind of situation because someone else out there is too.